For Nothing

A poem from 1989

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so much pain

so much eloquence

so much thinking

- for nothing!

- who was she?

     - where did she go?

Her trail of unknowing disaster

is my backslidden mood

so much pain

so much intention

so many unfruitful plans

- oh, nothing

     - it doesn’t matter

plenty more sea in the fish!

But no more wish

fantasy is not reality

reality is too painful

• - fantasy counts for nothing
  

NOTHING

• - no sale
• - no money paid
• - nothing ventured
• nothing gained

only losses

left out in the cold

of a dark, stormy night of the soul

which has no end

except in it’s new beginning