Chatter

A poem from 2016

Monkey monkey

Chatter chatter

I wanna be like you

Oo, oo!

Constant in my brain

Voices like mine

Chatter

Incessant

Oh, that thing you said yesterday!

Oh, that thing you're doing next week!

Oh, what if the house burns down?

Oh, you don't feel well!

Condemning

Ruminating

Worrying

Fear mongering

Sweating

Room closing in

Heart thumping

The shakes

Whirly swirly

Stuck in a loop

Dragging down

Spiral

SHUT UP!

*Fingers in ears* La, la, la!

Deep breaths

Count to ten

If I can make it that far….

Oh, body

Oh, mind

Monkey monkey

Chatter chatter

Who will rescue me from this mind of death?

I will, said that pill

I will, said CBT

I will, said mindfulness

Servants of the Lord, blessed small t trinity

So chatter chatter monkey monkey

I'm no longer listening

Do your worst

Or cooperate with me

I know your game now

I know how to beat you

I've won the war

And relax...